13th: Imitated Jackson Pollock (Learning, perhaps.)

I am abit bored of the word 'task'. It makes the whole thing so dull, slowly, I don't even enjoy this thing. It's like we won't feel excited every morning over the process of getting ready right, brushing teeth washing face etc. Ok, there is always exception.

Anyway, I decided not to use the word 'task' anymore.

Here we go, today's FUN!

Before.

I think I am getting used to this whole thing. I can easily open the book, grab the colours, grab the tools and start doing it. Maybe, it's the beginning is hard. Once we faced the fear and get used to it, we won't feel difficulty anymore. Although I am not sure that if the problem/fear is solved or it's just temporarily adapted.

Anyway, here it is, after grabbing the tools and ingredients. I started swinging the brush, splattering the colours.

The first stroke was timid. However, I started to enjoy the swinging motion, the colour choosing process after few strokes.

I do enjoy them. Finally, I learned to enjoy them!

This is where the peace comes from. After we let go the fear and the worries, let go the controls, the peace comes.

That is the begin of everything :)

After the brush, then flinging the book, to remove the excess of colours and water.

Remove the excess.

Luckily there is the plastic bag, (which I use to cover this book, I didn't open a new plastic bag k. I love the earth :D), that covered the table. The colours were everywhere.

Even on my laptop screen :-O Luckily it's not acrylic ...

My laptop screen :S



The final work!

  
Before ending this post, here is the hint given by the book:

Jackson Pollock

Of course, mine is not like his work, so abstract so artistic so carefree so cool so....etc.

He is the famous artist, I am not.

Well, that's all for today :)

Task twelve: Mess up the shirt.

Task of the day.

I am bored by the doddling, so I dropped some coffee on it.

Is this happened because the watercolour is left untouched for too long?

What is this liquid stuffs from the watercolours?



Surprised by rubbing away the disgusting liquid :-O

Sometimes, something that we dislike about, might give us some good surprise. 

I actually like the mess.

So,let's treasure everything happens in life, regardless good or bad.

Task eleven: Re-create those lines?

Luckily I have captured some pages before starting all the tasks.
I wouldn't have the chance to take a clean look of this page, if I didn't do so.

The 'before', long time ago before the previous tasks.

The very different 'before' for the same page:

The 'before', after the previous tasks and ruins. Taken right before current task.

Well, the task wants me to re-create those lines. I thought it should be easy to follow and draw. However, I knew I was wrong at the moment, when I was holding the pen just a few milimeters close to the page.
I looked at the lines carefully and hesitated.
What the hell, how to re-create the same lines?
Okay, I must try.. So, my pen touched the page and started moving.

Alright, it's impossible. (Maybe it's but not for me)
So, I started to doddle (and trying hard to create the same thing but failed).

The repair and the damage.

Further damage on the ruined parts.

Messy production. I created my own lines :S

Task 10: Damage and repair.

Finally, I forced myself to do this again.

It has stayed in the plastic bag for quite some time.



The task.

I was seriously confused by this task. Which image to alter? The image with big dots? Damage? How? What's the definition of damage here? Not destroy. But damage, only. Argh. What the hell.

"All my life I've been good but now

I'm thinking 'what the hell'!

All I want is to mess around

I don't really care about!"

I was listening to Avril's new song 'What the hell' when doing this task. Seriously, what the hell. I was a little fed up by the confusion and the procrastinate attitude of mine (to avoid doing this annoying lack-of-direction task). So, I went to gather up the tools and ingredients, and commanded myself to do it immediately!

Tools.



Ingredients.

Before damaging.

After the violent scartching by scissor.

I didn't know which page to damage, so I damaged both pages.

Since I was already really getting crazy, due to the accumulation of the tense/anxious feeling before starting this task, I decided to ruin it further. Not just little bit of scratching.

Ruined.

Ok, I almost tear them into 2 pieces, but I think again, it doesn't want us to destroy it. So, I stopped there.

(I know I was thinking too much. Can't help. I have to learn to let go and not to be so tense for everything. wth.)

Then, finally came to the part I feel more comfortable with: repair.

Repair could make bad things look good. Makes uglies beautiful again. I have this little attitude from Virgo - perfectionism. Not on everything, but particularly for stuffs I care about only. I can be really messy in life. But seriously, as I said in the first post, I try to control things, which makes me feel so difficult.



Anyway, here I repair the ruined.

I remember there is this line about ruin in Eat Pray Love: Ruined, is the path for transformation.

(So true and so good, comforting me)

The broken.




This is the back page.



The task doesn't require repair for the back page, I did it anyway.

I didn't know how to repair. I did some research on the hints given by this task: Japanese Boro Textiles

Japanese Boro Textile

Japanese Boro Textile

I still don't really get it. I think it's about patching up and covering the holes right?

Argh. Who fucking cares.

So I just do it my way. Cut the images I like and patched them up on the broken parts.

I love Stars. Stars represent hopes in Tarot. :)

Done!

Not too bad after all.

I think it was the first step is hard. Everything becomes so easy after the first step is taken.

Next task, put me into an even-more-clueless situation.

Maybe not too hard after all. Just follow the instinct right.

There is no right or wrong anyway. Not as if in school where I need to pass it up for marking.

Damage/destroy; Repair/rebuild.

 I have not done new task since last week. I feel a little bit defeated. I am not willing to start this task. I do not know how.

How to damage?

I do not know how to damage the page.  Tear it? Scratch it? Doodle on it?
Argh. How?
And I actually interpret the job as 'destroying' the page instead of 'damaging'. I do not know why I have this thought. I do not know why I feel so difficult to damage, as hard as destroy something.
I was told that 'destroy is the easiest part. Destroy does not require tactic what.' when I was asking Steven for help :(
Yes, I then think deeply, 'destroying'/'damaging' is supposed to be the easiest compare to 'building'. But, why? Why I feel so helpless?
Aih.

I did some research on Japanese Boro Textiles:


"19th c. Japanese cotton futon cover called “Boro” made from recycled indigo dyed cloth in patches joined together."




"19th century Boro textile."

 It is for the repair part, I believe.
But before getting there, I really need to damage the page first. Urgh.

I need to let go.
This was the main purpose I buy this book for, to let go.

Task nine: Destroy and restore with wrinkles.

Finally I am back for this book, after lazing for a while.

I think I have a bad habit.

I easily get bored of something.

For this book, I was really excited at first. I just couldn't wait to start new task everyday. I look forward to the moment for this book every morning I woke up.

However, I think I started to get used to it, I don't feel challenging anymore, or I don't think it could surprised me more. I started to feel unwilling to do it.

I have to change this habit.

Well, cut the craps. Here is the task:

The left page was nicely lying there before the task, except the colours left by the previous task.

Before.

Next minute...

No difficulty. Nearly tear the page while crumbling.

Coloured my fingers.

Before defining the lines.

After colouring the wrinkles.

Now, they are equal.

Now, both page are wrinkled.

OK, I have to feel gratitude.

YAY! I am looking forward to the next task! YAY! I am so happy~ Woohoo! -__-

Task eight: Move it move it.

First of all, I want to share one good news!

My mom finally fully accepted what I'm doing! I think. Just now when we got home, she asked me that: today what have you done? (by flipping my lovely messy book)

Yay! So I showed her what today task was, her reaction? Will let you know in the end of this post...

So let's see the task of the day:

Mixing up the colours :D

Colours of the day.

After this only I realised that it is a traffic light colours. Ops. Haha!

First drop.

I did it on the sink in washroom.

Move around.

I did not only move the book gently, but I shook it up and down, turned it upside down...

Symmetrical?

Unable to shut it up.

The tiny papers that trying to slip out from the book :-O

Owh, what's my mother reaction when I showed her the task of today?

Ta-da!

She said: Cheh, just that little thing. Pretty meh? Why the colours are not obvious?

Wow, she actually thinks that that is not enough! :D