The 17th: Cover up.

It has been really long time, really really really looooong time, since the last time I blog about this book (or project? experiment?) 

Anyway, here I am again! Back to this messy and dirty book. 
It is sleeping soundly inside the double layers of plastic bags like forever, until today I waken it up. 

So here is the 17th experiment: 

Task: Fill every square inch of the page with stuff. 

Ok, there are supposed to be 2 pages of the 'disaster area'? But anyway, since it says fill every square inch of THIS PAGE with stuff, I interpret it literally then with only ONE page is needed to be filled (because I am a lazy bug) 

I filled the page with stuffsss tho'. I grabbed anything that is within my sight at that moment to fill the page up. 

The result is surprisingly good. I love it! See what I have got there... 

Some random ingredient, shopping receipt, a failure of self-sewing pink star, and... part of tissue paper packaging.

Cola candy ;D

Cut of unwanted wool, random page of magazine.

Well, that's all. They look really random and now my book couldn't be closed due to the cola candy. Wth. Haha! 

Anyway, remember it or not, the main reason I started this project is to stop myself trying to control everything. I guess there is still a long path to go, but I see improvement of myself tho'. At least I put a candy in, which I don't think I would in the past. 

Alright, more to come (I promise).

16th: Bright Stars.

That day, I was drawing these stars.

That day, I was cutting these stars.

That day, I was watching Bright Stars.

The sunlight shine through the lace curtain and laid on these stars.

What a coincidence, again, here they are - the bright stars.



The fun.

I let the star drop and then paint on them.
(Alright, I confess, that I cheated. I adjust the stars slightly... At the same time I moved the star to the position I want, I told myself not to do it purposely because the book wants it to be messed up and not trying to make things beautiful!
Wth. I'm in contradiction agaisnt myself. Urgh.
And I gotta say, it's not totally my fault, as the star didn't really drop properly on the right place, for where I mean on the book, I can't paint outside the book right? So, not my fault, at some point. la-di-da~)

Yellow is a must for a star!

Done with pastels.

Trying hard not to control it to the right place (although I still adjust a bit...a bit!):

Colour-pencils series.

 

I must admit that, I quite like the natural position (with A BIT of adjustment)

Poster colours on!

I like it. I like it~

I like the crossover :)

Final result before further messing up.

Because I saw that the colour pencils are water soluble, so I thought I could blend them into watercolour form by a really wet (I mean it, wet! with water-dropping) tissue. I rubbed the really-wet-tissue over the colourpencil stains, but... it didn't really turn out to be as what I expected:

It just got really messed up.

 So, ta-da! The final result:

I like it actually, messy enough :D

Goodbye my stars :( Too dirty to keep.



15? - Melt the crayons? (I doubt that.)

Finally it's back. The 15th?





Tool.

  So here it started.


 

Bits of crayons.

I put a paper in between the iron and the book, so that the iron wouldn't get dirty. I'm still a little bit of trying too hard to control things. 

Fold the page into half before ironing.

Anyway, I was not really satisfied with the first outcome:

The first outcome.



Nothing much happened. The crayons didn't melt completely.

  So, here's the second attempt:


Added more! more! more!




Still, not much effect.

Not much, still. Even I have tried really hard to press the iron over the page.
I stopped here.

Well, that's all for today.
I am a bit not in the mood to post a blog.
It's time to sleep. Nights people.

14th: Get your hand dirty! (Urgh...Eww...Yucks!)

Long long time ago, I did the 13th. Finally here is the 14th.

I would rather kill myself to spill colours/glue/eggs/ice cream/etc./whatever onto my face.

I'd really rather to kill myself.

I don't want to use my face!!! Hell no! So I used my hand.

So, I think, it's really disgusting, to put something oily/waterly on the clean hand. Especially, you need to do it purposely and looking at the disgusting stuffs dropping onto your hand. I just don't know how to express that feeling.

After trying hard to get rid of the colours and trying hard to make the page dirty.

Anyways, I really had enough of this. My hands were sticky after rubbing the colours all over the page. It's so dirty. I mean my hands! I just don't fucking care about the book is getting dirty now. My anxious towards the book is over. Now it's my hands.

Had enough for today.

I really had enough today.
So, that's it.

13th: Imitated Jackson Pollock (Learning, perhaps.)

I am abit bored of the word 'task'. It makes the whole thing so dull, slowly, I don't even enjoy this thing. It's like we won't feel excited every morning over the process of getting ready right, brushing teeth washing face etc. Ok, there is always exception.

Anyway, I decided not to use the word 'task' anymore.

Here we go, today's FUN!

Before.

I think I am getting used to this whole thing. I can easily open the book, grab the colours, grab the tools and start doing it. Maybe, it's the beginning is hard. Once we faced the fear and get used to it, we won't feel difficulty anymore. Although I am not sure that if the problem/fear is solved or it's just temporarily adapted.

Anyway, here it is, after grabbing the tools and ingredients. I started swinging the brush, splattering the colours.

The first stroke was timid. However, I started to enjoy the swinging motion, the colour choosing process after few strokes.

I do enjoy them. Finally, I learned to enjoy them!

This is where the peace comes from. After we let go the fear and the worries, let go the controls, the peace comes.

That is the begin of everything :)

After the brush, then flinging the book, to remove the excess of colours and water.

Remove the excess.

Luckily there is the plastic bag, (which I use to cover this book, I didn't open a new plastic bag k. I love the earth :D), that covered the table. The colours were everywhere.

Even on my laptop screen :-O Luckily it's not acrylic ...

My laptop screen :S



The final work!

  
Before ending this post, here is the hint given by the book:

Jackson Pollock

Of course, mine is not like his work, so abstract so artistic so carefree so cool so....etc.

He is the famous artist, I am not.

Well, that's all for today :)